My mom is carrying my child. Part of me says walk in front of a train, part of me is turned on.
Guess I should give a little context. Im in my late teens, shes very early forties. Shes slightly chubby but still attractive, pic included is pretty close to how she looks. Grew up without a dad, he left my mom when she was pregnant with me, no other family either as they cut her off when they found out she was pregnant out of wedlock. We live in rural mid west in a pretty secluded area so i guess it's safe to share some of this, cant really be doxed from it.
We always had a kind of… complicated relationship. Long as I can remember she would drink and shout alot, the only times she didnt was when she wanted something, she was angry all the time. The times when she was nice would be when it was bath time when I was like six and she would get in with me and make me sponge her down. As a kid i didnt quite get it but now i do. As I got older she would sometimes invite me to sleep in her bed and give me some "fizzy juice" that would make me fall asleep quickly. Id wake up in the morning and feel sticky and have no clue what happened.
She eventually stopped all this when I hit eleven but something weird got into me. Think it must of been puberty as I got obsessed with her, like id lick her dirty bras or jerk off onto her clean panties. Thing is she caught me once when I was twelve and her being a psycho I expected to be shouted at but instead she just said put them back when I was finished and leave them in the drawer.
As I became a full on teen things got a bit darker. Some nights when she would pass out id go in and touch her. I had this weird urge to pull off her clothes a little then suckle at her breasts while I jerked off over her belly, it makes sense to me now but back then it was just primal I guess. Id rub my cum over her while suckling, rubbing it right down to her crotch yet she never said a single thing to me, she'd wake up the next day and keep on the clothes she wore the night before even though they had cum on. It was soon after this I started getting weird thoughts about pregnancy, making her pregnant, I kind of fended it off by lurking porn sites and eventually here trying to satiate it for a while. There were other things that happened between us during this time but this isnt a porn story, ill share if asked but not right now.
This shit continued until it all came to a head nine months ago. HerPost too long. Click here to view the full text.