I don't know if it's my fetish exactly, but if my internet history is anything to go by…sigh, I may as well post here.
So uh I don't really know what started it, but for context, I am a 29 year old female. I grew up in a religious environment so stifling that I didn't even dare to attempt masturbating until I was 26, and even then I saw it as mostly stress relief.
So for whatever reason, back when I was still in elementary school, my mom would watch those baby stories on TLC, where women like give birth on TV. I'd always NOPED outta the room whenever it was on, but she always kept watching them??? Like several episodes in a row?? And it always featured women screaming, and screaming women is already pretty traumatic for me (in addition to being religious, my mom also has thyroid problems that turn her into a total psycho) so it kinda gave me tocophobia.
But I guess, the fact that she could watch them (willingly) gave me a morbid fascination.
And then the Brady Bunch movie happened.
I guess one of the boys grew up and became a obstetrician, and they'd always show a woman doing her breathing exercises. For some reason, I don't know if it was sympathy pains or what, but I began to feel kind of funny in my pants, so I would squeeze and relax my muscles down there in some kind of rhythm and it felt nice. At one point in the movie, so-and-so's wife starts going into labor during a wedding or something? Idk it's been a while since I've seen it.
Plus there were a lot of sit coms and TV shows that would just have "Uh-oh the baby's coming!!" moments and it…it was always kind of exciting??
You can sort of imagine what it must be like to be the center of attention while everyone is trying to comfort you, cheering you on, telling you what a great job you're doing, and…thinking back on it, I guess I never really had that growing up. Middle children usually get ignored, and I sort of sucked at everything I did.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.